9/9/12

To nathan!

hey buddy! i miss you so much too!! and that is hilarious about the spider but really kind of gross! haha Don't go crazy! :) i only have a year left so it's fine don't worry it will go really quick! you will go on your mission soon enough! just enjoy the moments that you are in and you will love every second of it! Don't wish your life away! you are amazing and i love you letters! i will write you one as well because this is short!

love you so much

love syd

 to the family

so this week has been really good! i got my new comp and she is so great! She loves these things called kebabs and so we got one the other day. I tried lamb.. it was the most horrific thing that i have ever tasted!! i almost threw up because it was so horrible. never eat lamb. haha we have had some really good times because she is funny and we are always laughin which is really good.

So I have been thinking a lot this week about who I am and what it is that I am doing here. As in what do I want to look back on and see when my mission is over. There is this thing called the 4th missionary and it's about becoming someone the Lord wants you to be rather than becoming someone by accident. And it really hit me that i feel like i am just letting myself become someone by accident. because i have been giving my strength and my talents to the Lord but i had to ask myself if i was giving my heart. and it isn't until we completley give up what it is that we want to do and give the lord our heart thta he can shape us into our fullest potential. it is then that he can help us acheive and become more like christ and help us gain all of the attributes that will make us the happiest. It will give us the peace of heart and mind in knowing we are on the same page as the Lord and we are doing what he has set out for us to do. I just was thinking that i want to look back on my mission with no regrets and i want to walk out of it a better person, a changed person. Not only on my mission but i want to look back on my life and decisions that i have made and be proud and know that i included the lord and that i did what he wanted me to do. I want to become someone pleasing to him and not someone that the world pleases. If we don't change for the better then what is the point of life. We have to give up all of our desires and do what the lord wants. it doesnt mean that we cant have fun we just have to know how to let the Lord take the lead in our lives and not fight inside with our own natures and our divine natures and as soon as we give up that inner fight we will sore and become who we want. :) I love the gospel!!

I will write more in the letter i write!

love you all so much and miss you! love syd